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4:45 or faster at Fargo Marathon

4:30 at Chicago, steep but why not?!?!

2:10 Monster Dash Half

60 minute or less Get Lucky 10k

199.9 or less. 

36 waist

Start MBA

A1c of 6.0

FTW!!

Pre blood sugar: 127

50% basal 30 minutes 

Active insulin on board: 1.525

Post lower body: 65 blood sugar 10g  quick stick, 1 hour temp basal 25%. 

11 minutes left on temp basal, .2 onboard, 10g carb

Finishing blood sugar 89!!!

Warm up:

Minutes speed      BPM.      Actual

0 - 2      3.5/1%.   83 - 125 116

2 - 4.     4.3/1%.   125-135 145 

4 - 6.     4.7/1/%.  135-155 157

6 - 8.     5.1/1%.   155-160 166

8-10.     5.5/1%.   160-175 173

Stretch:

Weights:

Intervals:

4:00 zone 3 169-181. 174@5.9

1:00 zone 1 142-154. 161@4.0

4:00 zone 3 169-181. 178@5.9

1:00 zone 1 142-154. 157@3,5

4:00 zone 3 169-181. 179@5.9

1:00 zone 1 142-154. 157@3.0

4:00 zone 3 169-181. 178@5.9

1:00 zone 1 142-154. 161&3.0

4:00 zone 3 169-181. 180@5.9

1:00 zone 1 142-154. 170@3.8

5:00 cool down:

147@3.3

135@3.2

End at 130. Total distance 2.49 total time 30 minutes. 

89 final 

The Gold Medal or Blood Sugar, same thing

You ever watch the Olympics? Could be summer could be winter, both have great events. Lets look at Winter Olympics in this situation. I've seen some great single and some great double ice skating routines, I mean these skaters are GREAT! They'll have an announcer and they'll say "oooh, they made a mistake that's going to cost them a point" but the rest of the world is saying "OMG you're totally going to win this!" A lot of the time its when the TV Announcer looks at the video in slow motion and they say - oh ooh they're going to lose a point because their toes aren't exactly lined up like they should be.

When it comes to diabetes I believe other diabetics are the crowd and non-diabetics are the judges. Very quick to say "oh you can't eat that can you?" or "are you supposed to do that?"

Here's a story to prove my point:

Earlier I read the following Facebook post from my sister. Said this "Christmas blood sugars: 112, 84, 59, 130, 86, and 100..not bad  huh Douglas Scalia?"

I responded: "Way better than mine!"

Some other person responded: "That 59 isn't so good for you or baby"

Chris Carter says it best, "C'mon MAN, COME ON!" 59 is low or bad? C'mon Man! I didn't say my blood sugar was 30, 45, 300, 225, 56, and then at bedtime was 100" I said it was 112, 84, 59, 130, 86 and 100!!!!!" C'Mon Ma'an that's an average of 106!!!!!! FUCK ME! What else do you want from me?

I'd fucking kill for my blood sugar average to be 106! I was going to post on the string of Facebook comments but decided to take my anger out here instead.

One little blip and we're judged, unfair but a fact of life. I shared it on my blog because I know only people with Diabetes read it or people who care about me so either way its people that understand. If someone finds this blog on accident and they don't know jack about diabetes, c'mon man, learn something and educate yourself on it. Someone tells me their blood pressure is 150 over 300 I don't say "holy shit that's fucking high" mostly because I don't know what the fuck it means!

If you don't know what you're talking about don't comment, maybe ask "Is that good or bad?" and let me explain to you how the average works out. Don't ask if you don't want to know, I'll tell you if you ask so be ready for an explanation. If you don't care, and there are things I don't understand and I don't care to understand, shut your mouth.

And with that, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year

Portion Control

Had Christmas with my mom and siblings today. My mom made lasagna and it was delicious. I told myself today I could eat it but also knew I had to have some self control and not gorge myself. I think I did pretty well but wish I did better I told Sarah Hankle that I ate half as much as I could have but also ate twice as much as I wanted to. In the end I'll consider it a win. 

Looking at the meal I could have made it better by having a salad first and a nice veggie choice such as green beans or broccoli. The salad and veggies would have made me feel fuller earlier and maybe I could have cut half the carbs out that way too. 

Eating with others you have a lot less control so you have to just make due. I did see a pile if cookies that I avoided though! Big win skipping those!!

I started using myFitness pal based on a recommendation and I only have 260 calories left for the day but I also have a interval run to do this evening. 

Photo of lunch. 

Dawn phenom

Dawn phenomenon is when blood sugars rise in the morning for no apparent reason. Woke up at 109 and suddenly 140, could a shower alone cause the rise? I bolus'd a half unit prior to my shower. Some things are just not explainable. 

Knock on wood

Today at the Adults with Type 1 Diabetes meeting put on by JDRF there was a newly diagnosed woman named Haley Doyle. Haley was very upbeat and positive about her diabetes even though it caused some serious concerns towards her long term goal of graduating from the Naval Academy and making all the requirements the government has on its military personal.

Beyond the speaker other things came up such as Ketoacidosis (KDA) - I'm not even going to try and explain what it is but I have a link here from the American Diabetes Association for your review:

http://www.diabetes.org/living-with-diabetes/complications/ketoacidosis-dka.html

Diabetic Retinopathy - Diabetic eye disease, damage to the small blood vessels in the retina. Loss of vision may result.

Dawn Phenomenon - the early-morning rise in blood glucose level (4 - 8 a.m.)

Low Blood Sugar -

Diabetic Coma -

Man - all these things are SCARY but they need to be talked about. Unsure if I've ever been through KDA and I'm 100% sure I haven't gone into a diabetic coma, they're both scary to think about. I remember my early years as a diabetic I would go to bed with my blood sugar high because I was afraid of dying in my sleep. Enough time went by where I trusted what I was doing and wasn't afraid to die in my sleep but now the worry for me is what about other complications? By having these early fears did I create a long term problem by running high?

Diabetic coma, phew, big sweat drop off the eye brow on that....could be a literal and figure comment because I've been quite sweaty on some of my low blood sugar instances. If I sweat I worry, that's an extreme low and a "oh shit, I'm around Doug and I know he's not ok" type of feeling, this feeling sucks too. I feel very fortunate that I haven't ever passed out due to a low blood sugar. The lowest I have read my meter and been awake for it was 15, true story.

In the end I wonder to myself and out loud on this blog "Am I a bad diabetic?" Shouldn't I know everything that can go wrong with me, shouldn't I know what it feels like to have KDA or not? I should at least understand how to read a test strip. I've had diabetes since 1999 and I didn't know the difference between Basal and Bolus until I went on the pump almost 2 years ago, almost 15 years of being a diabetic and the first 13 I was clueless.

The thing I've found most helpful in the last 2 years has been the diabetes online community and support of the JDRF adults with type one group. Early I wish I had come to some of these JDRF Meetings, their are a lot of great people who know exactly how you feel. It sometimes sucks to try and explain how a high or low feels but its amazingly wonderful to sit in a room and listen to someone such as Haley Doyle explain how she goes into survival mode wanting to eat everything in site to recover from a low, talk about BEEN THERE DONE THAT!

I hope you've enjoyed this post, please share with a friend if you learned anything or enjoyed the read. Time to test and go to bed!

Sitting in the locker room

As I sit in the locker room I'm reflecting on the difference between a diabetic and a non diabetic and how simple things like working out create so many things to think about. 

When was my last bolus?

Do I have active insulin on board?

Should I temp basal?

Should I partial dose for dinner or work out before and dose after?

Will my blood sugar go up or down this work out?

Do I trust my cgm or test throughout? 

If I trust my cgm do I trust IT more than I trust myself?

I was riding low all afternoon, my cgm read me in the 50'd but I was usually in the 80's when I tested so I knew I was ok. 

Going into the workout I was 112 and I started with a weight routine. My doctor and everyone else I know says blood sugar goes up during this type of activity so no temp basal. I wasn't sure the mood if be in for cardio or not so I tested after weights and was 166, cgm read 141. 

Jumped on the dread mill and a mile in I had double arrows up in my cgm but I didn't correct because I know the cgm is about 20 minutes behind. Post run I'm 196 and the cgm is 240. I'm still not going to correct but rather going to use this as part of my long term science experiment. 

Lots to consider vs changing, working out, changing and going home. 

What 112 pre and double arrows up looks like:

Confused

Here are my readings today:

4:17 pm 59

2:57 pm 61

2:27 pm 75

1:44 pm 99

1:06 pm 46

12:04pm 71

9:35 am 129

6:57 am 175

5:55 am 116

12:00 am 66

Bolus info in the day = 18.8 units 

Fruit at breakfast. 57 carbs in a mocha. 15 carbs in some other thing. 30 grams in quick sticks. I shoveled twice but really don't understand the lows. Plan mining a hour run later so I may set a temp basal at 5:30 and run it 50% for 3 hours and see where I end up.